Hmm, you know when you reach that point in the year, or even month, when you cant just figure out what youre missing?

just a feeling of "do something".
or " get this ".
"i need this" in order to be happy.

something around them lines. i think i reached that point from this year.
a bit early too i guess, buti have no idea what i want from my life at the moment, ive tried diong anything but i get bored and go away from it.

you know, the whole thing. its horrible. because you end up sitting there just complaining or thinking you should do something but actually cant? even trying to explain how i feel is actually harder than doing it probably, but then you think.
you have everything you need, i have everything i need.
i have a job, i have an education, i have friends, i have health, i have alot of things which people would be envious of.....but we as humans are still unhappy with that.

And so i am really, im sort of annoyed at the fact that i am always the guy people talk to when they have problems, im a block, pretty much a drone, as if i have experience or something you know, i have no idea, i like making people happy and why wouldnt i.

And when people important to you just stop talking to you as soon as you fixed the problem, sweet. I normally dont write posts that will normally seem upsetting, i actually hate them myself, but i love to cover things up as if im trying to be funny or it doesnt matter. everyone does it.

Im sure if i stripped you off every single barrier i would find someone who is as scared and pissed off as everyone else in the population. and im sure if youre reading this you will know what im talking about.
there is something youre scared of, there is something you hate or want out of life, like everyone.
you dont know where youre going but aslong as you have a magic carpet and a drink along the way its okay.

i really wish i had a best friend or something to handle this with or something. im actually lacking that quality :)
maybe i dont need one lols.

even sitting here right now, im trying not to write something down that would make me seem a little bit sadder, because it sounds so cliche it sounds so........stupid to me.
having a partner is something everyone complains to me about, and i help, as if i have experience. tbh, im one of those people that doesnt really go for someone unless i like them alot. hell i dont even kiss, flirt, or do anything with any other women if i like someone, not even drunk.
which is sorta dumb tbh but meh. anyways as i was saying, this is what im trying to avoid saying, "i want someone". and it really embarasses me to say that. i dont know why, but it does, alot of people know me as someone who doesnt give a shita bout it. but hey sure i do, like anyone else.

i go out with friends to pubs or clubs and they seem to focus on being themselves, its justs, girls girls girls. and you gotta looka t our society.

its like animals, but animals dont have the shallow counterparsts we do, they dont go 'hey the dolphin is pretty, i want her to be my mate' no its just instinct....we have to put up with self esteem and image, and i think that is worse part about it all, its that part that hurts a person more than anything. "am i good looking enough""am i pretty enough" is what everyone is asking themselves, when it really shouldnt matter.....but it does. ha.

who are the happiest people you know.
people with relationships?
people with cash and cars or whatever?

thats a trick question because theyre not, no one is in terms happy. theyre 'content'.
i could say im content, i just want more :)